Barely alive.;;

SCHOOL SUCKS.
Last semester DRAINED me. T___T SERIOUSLY.
ALL 300 classes and 1 400 level class.
I... seriously.... wanted to cry sometimes.

I feel like such a failure. -____- and seriously by finals I was like EFF ALL OF THIS.

Of course I didn't.... I didn't sleep for... 3 days straight... Maybe about 2 hours each night?

Actually the last day I didn't sleep at ALL.
I passed out while writing my essay in class -_-;
The teacher came back and I SWEAR he was looking at me with my passed out self. Seriously, my head was on the desk, eyes closed, cap over my head. -_________- I must have looked like I was cheating. But he probably saw me and just shook his head like "-_- stupid student" and then went back to the front. LOL.

Well I got a B in his class so.......... YAY!! I SURVIVED THAT HELL OF A CLASS~!!!!!! :D!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU PROFESSOR KIM!! I know you think me and Trac are stupid but XDDDDDD <3!

Now to worry about.... the rest of my classes -_-;;; Needing 3 grades.
If in one of them I do good, I'll do good in the other class. The last class... I did pretty well until the final which I handed in late and... kind of makeshift SUCKY. So...;; I don't know. -_- I imagine... HONESTLY....

AAS 391.1: A - C (-_-;)
AAS 391.6: A - C (same)
AAS 392 : B-B+?

~___________________________~ FAILURE

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So... in... fandom world....
I HONESTLY DO NOT KNOW WTF IS GOING ON.

I'm too busy with IRL crap to be dealing with that. Seriously. All I care about though is 2PM. >_>;;
I EFFING LOVE Again and Again and now... 2NE1's Fire. (I BLAME YOU SOHEE UNNI! >_<!)
As if Lollipop wasn't bad enough >_>;;

I officially... want... Taekyeon, Khun, Jaebum, Junsu (in that order) ... actually... I love all of them!!!! KYA *fangirlscream*
-___-; LET ME HAVE MY BURST OF FANGIRL MOMENT. I've been deprived for SO long.

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I love... Trax Jay ._. Seriously... LOVE HIM. <3
I'm rediscovering my love for Shinhwa -.- My first official fandom LOL.
Kim Heechul is such a b**** <333 (or at least... mine is XD)
Hanbyul why are you so sexy? T___T I want your body!!!! I still like you even though you're dating Se7en.
Teuk why're you such a pushover -_- grow a backbone.

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Other news, Starbucks at school sucks~
Why is it still so hot and musky in there -_- damn.
I'm really... just sick of school... one more year left psh...

I gotta take summer classes at SB Manhattan >_>
I realized I didn't have any classes in Javits this semester O_o woh. LOL AWESOME <3
I need to raise my GPA. I'm stupid. -_-;

=_= okay I need to stop being random. okay.

BTW I got the 2PM CD WOO~ XD SEXINESS~ <3

I'm officially hooked -_- I've passed the point of no return.

I love Kyoto. mMm I do :D
 

Yes...
So... guess what kept me up ALL night last night?



THIS... IS... JUST...
NO WORDS COME OUT OF MY MOUTH...

HEENIM T-T JUST FREAKING BE A K-ROCKER!!!
Jungmo-nim... Don't cry too much because of it huh?

LOLLLLL

Okay. Here we go.
Another update.
I sound so depressed these days. -_- wth is wrong with me?

Sorry.

I've been bummed out lately because of school but everything is okay now!
I suppose;;

I want to sub something but there is nothing to sub.

I don't want to sub Heechul + Hongki daddy because the episodes I saw are all slow and boring -_-;
NO WONDER NOONE ELSE WANTS TO DO IT.


I mean I should since I'm not doing anything lately anyway... but...
Ugh... That show bores me to NO end.

One or two funny jokes but that's it.
The pilot is 300x better. >_<
ugh...; sorry. but... yeah..

Anyway...
My fics are all sad. I should try making a happy fic forreal.
But what does it matter >_>; Nobody reads it anyway...
My writing does kind of suck doesn't it?
Eh... Yeah.

This is turning out to be another sucky post.
I'll conclude it here and edit it as time passes. >_>;

My birthday is tomorrow...

I should be excited. I think I am.
Ah I feel like such a little kid.

I'm being picky and everyone knows that so I actually know all the presents that everyone is getting me cause they're like "I don't want to get you anything, you might not like."
I'm just like "... -_- But now the surprise is ruined."
And they're like "... Sorry?" or my other friend "You're too damn picky that's why!"

My friend said she got me Harajuku something on the phone and I'm like
*in the middle of work, running around changing paper, then going back on the comp. to finish the Mac Basics quiz* "What? Huh? Yeah Sure?"
And later I was like "She bought me a bag?" >_>; "Ah well I can live with that."
Then on the way back to the dorm, *past 12 and rainy and freezing* "Does Harajuku make bags? -_- Yeah... But wait they wouldn't buy me a bag... ~_~;"

So I knock on her door. "You got me perfume???"
And she's like "Yeah."
I'm like O.o "Heh." The exact reaction on my face. And she's like "Why?!"
I'm like "I don't know if I'll like it. -_-;"
AND THEN SHE KILLED ME.

No haha just kidding.
I had to make her group project video for her. -.-
I learned new skills. (thanks you coolsmurf) HAHA.


I told my cousin "I want a camcorder" and now she's trying to find one.
One she thinks is "perfect" because I wouldn't like it otherwise.
I'm like "........GREAT!"


._______.

Maybe I am a selfish ho after all...;


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I've been writing sad/insanity fics. -_-
I think I should just go back to the crazy fics. Heh.
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WHY AM I NOT IN ASIA WATCHING SUJU BE GHEY AND STRIPPING? T-T
Please come to NY, Madison Square Garden.
So that I may partake in the eye candy that is you.
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I was nagging to my old roommate and I think she got a little pissed. :X
Ah... well... it's all out of love...;

And that's when I die (forreal). >_>;

I've been on hiatus for way too long.
I just don't want to do anything anymore.
Translating... School... Work...
Don't want to do anything.
I'm ready to just give up...

I sound so depressing. -__-
Agh. Tonight is just one of those cold nights...
When you just feel especially lonely.

I only have the warmth of my electric blanket...
Ah. I'm so sad.

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너무 힘들어...
너무나...
나 어떡해? 이대로 살고싶지 안아.
누구나 좀 구해줘라. 제발...

못살 만큼 아파.
아파서 죽을거같에...
살려줘...

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Birthday is in a few days...
Hope I feel better by then.

아니면... 나 어쩌지?

OH...

Kay...

No...
More...
Of...
This...

OMG so...
I have not done anything.
School is kicking my ass (per usual)

Forget my last angry rant post.
Miscommunications... happens all the time.
-_- bitches need to fight in order to stay normal, right?


messing around with my new iriver~ (It's the newest edition)
guess who is my background.
you'll never guess... well maybe.
oh well... it's pretty and light and amazing.

my dad was like "this is your birthday present."
I'm like -_-; "really;; but my birthday is next month"
dad: "it's early."
me: XD "SO COOL! Thanks daddy~!!!"
dad: "..."
me: "dad, I want a camcorder."
dad: "buy it with your own money."

-______- AH thanks how life goes. no?
Heh. I am just a greedy little thing after all...

ugh...
omg I am just so... mad.
WTF? NOT FREAKING COOL.
I am PISSED.
Who the hell do you think you are?
You want to mess with me?
FINE. DO IT.

I DON'T CARE.
I'm crazy and all I have is brute strength.
YEAH IT'S TRUE.
What?!

OMFG
I just want to scream SO BAD.
I need to go out for a walk or something.
OMG!!!

So as if I don't already have so much to do, I decided for some reason I was bored and has nothing to do so I opened up a news blog.
>_>; Yeah... I know what am I thinking?

But... I mean... all the news that other people don't do that I think are important, I'll do. http://gomdoriii.wordpress.com/
Look if you want, I'll post at least once every day.

other news...
linguistics is kicking my ass. -__-
wtf? i don't know how to make trees. this is like the gheyest crap ever. OMFG.
I'm going to fail if I don't do like every homework and get 100s on every quiz and test now -__-
OMFG. AHHH SOMEONE HELP MEEEEEEEEEE.

Syntax is officially death...

I feel accomplished!!
I finally finished the Heechul + Hongki Daddy thing last night...
I stayed up until 7 in the morning to do it...
But it's all up now for the mass medias viewing pleasure. -_-

And now... I'm cracking sunflower seeds bored...
There is nothing to do...
(Actually I have homework... but not in the mood for that...)

Me and Tomo made microwaveable corn and peas >_>
Mixed it together. There's breakfast and lunch.
There were 2 fire alarms this morning.
That woke many people up and you can hear people screaming, cursing...
That is if you didn't go deaf from the fire alarms. (There was one yesterday too and it was raining!)

Oh I don't know.
Someone give me something to do. =_=

It seems as if I can't trust anything on youtube anymore.

SBS has been gone.
And now MBC and KBS are steadily making their moves into the whole wipeout of Korean related things... So...
I've moved accounts...
Well more like I already made an account just never announced to the world of it's existence...

Oh I also made a wordpress. >_>;;
Following coolsmurf and muishie's example...
-___- Posting on here is like... AGH.
Not everyone knows how to use livejournal and stuff you know...;

So my wordpress link is http://gomdorii.wordpress.com

And now I can upload the SBS things that I wanted to upload. YAY~!!!
Like the Heechul - Daddy for a Weekend thing. XD!!!!!

I'm posting a lot of useless stuff;;;
Sorry;;;
Short CFs that even if you don't have sub you get the gist of it;;;
Hum... I should sub something long.

But what if it gets deleted?

And -__- I've been talking to a few other subbers and our inspiration for subbing has gone down... a lot. As you probably noticed, a lot of people are only posting m/vs.

But that is probably the safest bet right?
I'm assuming;;

I would post that I take requests but I'm afraid I might be flooded and so NO not doing that;
If I'm really bored...
Maybe I'll get to doing Banolim (Sharp) 2 or maybe Rainbow Romance?

We'll see though... and yes I am open to suggestions.

I'm kind of down lately;;

Maybe because I'm leaving Korea soon?
Maybe because I didn't visit all the people I was suppose to visit?
Maybe because my mom is going to KILL ME when I get back to the states???

... sigh ...
I don't know...;

My best friend is reading comics on the bed and her older sister is playing with my DS on the sofa. >_>; I stole the computer. HA.

I still need to get last minute gifts...

(P.S. I love this melody...)
.
..
...
....
.....

*death*

So...
I love it here.
And I don't want to go back.
I hate America. X(

I'm sorry...
I'm just... being a little crazed...
Because I never knew it was SO easy to meet a star.

OMFG
Yes... I saw Wonder Girls and Alex and Wheesung and they were all amazing and cool. (And wtf Yoobin + Sunye ghey?! >_>; I was like wtf;;; ) Then 2 days after... me and my friend met Crown J and took pictures.
And *DEATH*
CROWN J CAN SPEAK ENGLISH!!!
I was like ... that ... is ... not ... him ...
But... gods. yeah. it was him. and me and my friend were just awed.
Her because she "secretly" likes Crown J and me because of the fact that I paid fricken 6 dollars for a slushie from a coffee shop and there he was...
Crown J himself. Oh and his car is NICE!!!

P.S.
PJ Party is the GAYEST thing I've ever heard in my life.
-________-; SERIOUSLY.
I was eating noodles at a resturant in Apgujeong and I choked when it came on TV. Dear... goodness... OMFG. They... need to cut it out.
I LOVE them to pieces but they really... just need to stop...;;

Oh and Kang needs to lose some weight seriously...
Go back to Yoriwang time T-T!!!! <3

my yt is gone...

...again....

......*sigh*.....

new beginning...?

I don't know about that yet =_=


- I heard coolsmurf got kicked too...
BOO.

Our angel is sad these days :(
I saw him yesterday and he wouldn't smile...
It was so sad T-T
I couldn't go today because of this damned paper (which is still not finished)
But I watched it and... UGH. I wish I was there to record him and monkey :(
They were so silly today.

Teuk messed up XD SO STUPID. LOLLL
I was like ~_~; wow... heh. But he had an adorable pink shirt and white cap on.
oh gods. I just really... ever since Lotte World...
I need to see them. Forreal;
This is driving me INSANE. Why the HECK am I here for studying?
I'm not transferring any of these credits anyway! T-T!!!!
I'm going tommorrow...
But... my uncle wants to meet up earlier so I don't really know what's going to happen :(
Hope he's happy and smiles tomorrow.

+

>_>; fancams... heh... I'm like AW. They sang that 98 degrees song (mouthed-whatever) with me and my friend were singing along to and *DEATH*
I swear. ISOWISHWEWENTODAYBECAUSETODAYWASTHEBESTDAYEVER. THEYDANCEDTOSOHOT!!!!!!!
WTFFFFFFFFF. =(

Okay I...m just... going to go and finish my Korean homework and write my paper. :(
:(!!!! Do you notice how upset I am?

Yes... I'm starting to become a little crazy. -__- you'd be too if they were like... 10 feet away from you.

omg forget it all.

I'm falling in love all over with Eeteuk.
Forget the surgery and the fact that he's like SO many more years older than me.

OH GODS. The more I see him the more I love him.
My old flame is coming back~~~

Ah what do I do?

He seems so happy these days :D
Maybe it's just me ~_~;;;

more later;; + fancam;;; heh.

boys are so dumb - in the most unadorable way

what the hell?
I'm slightly depressed...
Just a wee bit.
Really.

*SIGH*

That's it. I'm done. -_____________-
No more stressing out over something that is clearly NEVER going to happen.
And I'm not about to make this into some freakin Korean drama.



'Oppa WHY?!' Psh -_- forget that.



I think I'm going to be single for the rest of my life...

*SIGH*

I'm drinking too much >_>;;

I guess it's because I'm legal here... and is in easy access...
I just have to walk like... less than 10 minutes and there is Shin Chon which is...
bar paradise.

But yeah... shoot...
my cousin and wife were like "Let's go eat dinner." So we had sam kyup sal. :D
And what goes good with sam kyup sal?

SOJU (of course >_>;;)

Gezuz.

But actually it's true.
The slightly oily-ness of the sam kyup sal made you not taste the bitterness of the soju as much.


But still I'd rather stick with my fruit soju.
It's delicious~
Tastes just like juice!!!

But then after we went to 2 cha (second round) tequila... ---
I had to go find my friend in my slightly tipsy state and my phone ran out of money so I had to call borrowing peoples phones >_>;;; ugh... that was so bad.

And so YEAH...

Shot after SHOT.

My friend was gone. like really.
I took pics of her and I was like "I'm going to take a pic." And she's like "KAY~~!!"
The next day "WHEN DID YOU TAKE THIS PICTURE?! ERASEIT!!!!!!!!!"


Yes. That's one story.


But I don't think that story is important enough for me to be posting rather than doing this paper for film class that is worth 25% of my grade. (My teacher is insane)


SO...
I ran into my old crush for a long time ago.
Okay not ran into but... I thought the whole family was going to hang out but... -_-;
the parents had business to attend to and the unni had a meeting... so we were left by ourselves... and it was okay... I suppose.

Not to mention I was late because I was kind of like "EH... I feel sick from alcohol last time."
And so I was like >_>; I can't move... They waited like... 2 hours. OMG I felt SO BAD. T-T!!!!

Anyway... we were left by ourselves. *DEATH*
He kept bringing up the past and I'm like "I don't remember...;;"

And he came with me all the way back to school and... was doing that whole... "protective" oppa-ish thing. Like making sure I get on the bus or subway first. Grabbing a hold of me since I have 0 balance. Making sure I sit down first. And...;;; okay... this is stupid.

It's not an oppa thing. It's a guy thing right?
AH. I'm over thinking this aren't I? >_<

He can speak French. ._. And his English pronunciation is pretty good. <3

Oh gods. I don't know why...

BUT you know when you just get that feeling. Like your heart does that thumpy-thumpy thing.
Not because you like them but you know... your feelings from a long time ago come up?

Yeah that happened to me last night and I couldn't sleep... or do my paper.

Yeah my paper is due in 2 hours and I have a total of 1/2 page done.
I'm screwed -___- eh whatever.

I'm...
just....
REALLY....
Hopeless....
...................
.....................
.......................
.........................
...........................
I want to go drink......

I don't think I can ever get a decent nights sleep ~________~
Ah well... it's okay cause it's crazy fun.
And I just took like 194145151410 pics.
(No but... I take like 100 pictures a day >_>; )

My family is pretty good...
Healthy.

Little brat (boy) cousins are obsessed with games so if they aren't playing internet games, they are playing DS. My DS BTW. LOL but whatever.

The girls are so cute ^^ They are growing up so nicely~~~!!!!!!
AGH and I remember when I was their age, I was pimply and disgusting!!!
WTH?


Ah anyway... I gave all of them a total of 100 dollars in allowance ._.

5 of them... it was sorted according to age and gender.
Boys that young don't need money anyway...

BUT OMG my little brat cousin is a second year in middle school and he's taller than me!! OMFG and he's so tall and lanky looking!!!!!!!!! *death* But he's still a little brat thing.
You know how I know?

Because he calls past 12 at night and is like
"I heard you have my charger..."
I'm like "Yeah... I needed to charge my DS."
And he's like "I can't play my DS because I don't have the charger."
"What? You want to come and get it?"
"Maybe..."
"....."
".........."
"What you want me to bring it to you now?"
"Do whatever you want. (In a Yes bring it kind of way)"
"What?! It's past 12! You want me to go all the way over there?!"
"Yeah..."
"If you want it that much you come get it."
"I just might..."
">_>;; You're really going to come?"
"Maybe."
"Wait so you're coming?"
"Possibly."
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah."
"Yah! >_<+!!!" <- *My breaking point*
"I'm hanging up."
"What? ._.;"
*click*


>_< !!!!!!!!!! W T F?


I swear boys are so STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like there's other stuff I have to say but I can't think of anything...

Anyway pictures...;;;

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